Distractions

Why try? We dream of the future, but our dreams never come true. We have all these expectations for our lives, but very few of them are ever accomplished. We set goals for ourselves, but how many of them do we meet? And if we are able to get what we thought we wanted out of life, we then realize this is no longer what we want. Its like no matter what we do, nothing satifies us, nothing completes us, nothing fufills us. We seek after entertainment, constantly shifting from one thing to another. Its as if we think this new thing will entertain us more than the last, but isn't that what you thought about they last thing also? Whats the point?
The sad thing is, I know what the answer to these question is. I know what will satisfy me, what will make me whole. I know what I must do to obtain this contentment, but the very things I am trying to use to fufill myself are the things that distract me from true fufillment. Its like entertainment and dreams are a drug. They fufill you for now, making you high on temporary happyness and wishful thinking. But they wear off and fade away, leaving you feeling emptier than you ever were before. I know that it is He who can fufill me, sustain me, make me whole. But I continuously refuse to let Him take control of my life. I'm constantly distracted by empty entertainment and desires, forgetting what the true answer to all my emptyness is. I must truely be insane, knowing the answer but refusing to acknowledge and embrace it. Ive struggled with this for years, never being able to win the battle against my selfish pitiful desires. Its a battle, and I see a chance of winning it, but its a very small chance. I can't do it on my own. I've tried, I've failed, and I will always fail... unless He helps me.